lost in the way~

Thinking my this post will be something about my new job - yes and no

What made me feel like jotting down my feelings is yet my bunch of HDB khakis... Sigh..

Its been 2 weeks in my new job. And I can say I have yet a long time to adjust and adapt to it. Not that the job scope is very hard to chew, but the environment, the culture, the people are ten thousand miles of difference away with my HDB pals. And the wedding banquet I attended this monday did no help and make me reminisence the past days even more.

I totally enjoyed the wedding dinner. Though it is an extremely expensive one, it gives me lotsa laughter, lotsa friendships and lotsa wonderful memories. Seemingly, I am getting no where being irrational, but.. why~ why~ why~

I sometimes wonder.. how am I going to survive.. I make minimal interactions during work.. and how can this ever happen to such a sociable kid like me?!?!?!?!

I can still clearly remember how noisy I am when I was at HDB.. How bouncy and jumpy I am when I was at HDB.. How much of the time I spent laughing away.. How much time I was really serious and focus in my job.. How much time I spent talking to people of any kind.. How how and how..

Now that it is all over.. I can only once in a while, think back and laugh my head off..

They always say.. nv look back.. But if it is the best memories one have.. why can't I?

Then again, this is not a time for regret but to make things happen and live life to its fullest.. How to.. Maybe I must ask myself that question more often... What can I do to fit in to this new group of people with different frequencies, different laugh notes, different topics of discussion.. Its the age gap barrier and different stages of life barrier I have to overcome man...

Show me the way before I get too LOST~