uncertain

Humans are weird.. cos when they least expect something.. they are most likely to find themselves feeling more happy in life.. But when they started say, "no expectations, no disappointments." inside them, they're already expecting something. Someone told me so yesterday. True enough.. yes.. maybe i am expecting..

My last day of work ends real well. Though a part of me, don't really want it to end, rational me knows that I couldn't handle two distinct duties at a time. As much as I couldn't bear to leave them, I still leave the office. Spending the last few hours at office is weird when you slowly see your colleagues left one by one.. each qeueing up to give you hugs and kisses.. i tried my best to fight back the tears. Never would I know that it would be so hard.

But now i am here, a couple of days after it. Still thinking about them, missing them but I know deep inside that I've to move on, to another stage, and give the best shot for my studies.

This sem's work seems a little heavy. Did i even use the word "little"? I guessed we should all grow up and get out of the infancy stage. But its just so uncomfy. Many around me are already pretty stressed out. So am I. But still, I know we'll all tide through. Cos its just the way of life.

The yardstick of the first part of my life is reaching soon. Looking back at what I've done for the past 20 years, I'm sad to say I have not achieve anything. Maybe it's still too early to say but it seems I'm stuck with the mainstream people; going through education just because its the main route for everyone.

my dreams... how can i achieve you...?