Control!

Woah.. I am really tired.. Just dunno why, all my energy is gone.. gone with the wind. Maybe I am sick and tired of this lifestyle. But how, to add something to my life for a change?

Maybe I have pushed myself too far, further than where I thought I could be..

"Life is too important to be serious"

I saw this phrase some where before. To me, life is short. We shouldn't go about living life with regrets. But in order to achieve that, one must have enough courage to pull himself through. I just don't have the right amount of courage.

As much as I wanted to change my life for the better, things are pushing me back, pushing me down. A friend of mine once said, if you feel down, let yourself be.. I guessed what she is trying to say is, there is always a limit as to how "down" you are, and everyone has the ability to pick himself or herself up. which is true.. but i am impatient.. i can't wait like this..

I realise a significant change to my tolerance.. Felt really sinful for it.. maybe i am used to my nice self.. Actually, though others may not say.. But sometimes, i feel that my niceness are so fake.. Haiz.. I do not want to be like this.. The whole bad mood thing is getting all over me.. Ahh..

However, this is just a learning experience.. And when there is a next time (I don't hope so though), I can better control myself.. hahaha..

The art of self control can only be taught through self experience.