a messy post..

Hmmmm.. I realised that I had many first times this year.. I had my virgin hair highlight, my virgin flower making session and my virgin vegetarian buffet.. Hahaha.. Somehow, I see that I have got alot of things I have not tried yet, when many at my age, have already done.. Ooo~ that makes me feel real old-fashioned.. hahaha

But then again, there is nothing to regret here. Cos its my character.. I do not like to follow the crowd.. I like to do things at my own pace and own timing.. Say i am lazy if you want.. cos a part of me is lethargic in trying to follow the speedy change of fashion.. I just want something comfortable for me at different phase of my life.. You don't like it.. den.. so be it.. cos thats me.. hahahaha..

Suddenly, the heck-care peiying comes out from the box.. wanted to be different from all people so as to stand out.. an uninteresting way indeed.. to stay behind the flow when everyone is moving forward.. isn't that standing out enough.. hahaha..

Sometimes, I do feel that my perceptions and opinions are right.. but if i try to instill in others and they couldn't accept it, I think i shd let go.. maybe they have the right to hold their own perceptions and thoughts.. or maybe i am just lazy to keep on trying.. hahaha..

Feel that this is such a crappy post.. Ahhhh.. the right and wrong of things.. the two sides of the coins... Its all just perceptions.. "Problems are illusionary.." --- this is what i learnt from someone today.. But that someone seems that he doesn't fully understand what it really means.. People are always full of themselves.. Same as me.. Just that you guys may not know.. Lalalala

OOO~~ this birthday thingy is getting on me.. In just one week, I am going to celebrate two of my relative's birthdays.. my cousin and my sis.. haha.. It makes me think.. how should i celebrate mine? Should i even make it big? or just celebrate it in peace... *pondering