Changes.. Everyone do change.. Just the matter of fact, if the process is slow or fast.. For what i have become today, it had all been due to the mixture of events in my life. I can't say its extremely bad or extremely good, cos i don't really find myself as a good person. But definitely, i am a much better one as in the past. However, I am still learnin and be a better person.I had slowly turned out to be more self-centred (or if u want.. abit selfish..) I no longer put others in the first place.. caring and noting how others feel before I. I am in the lime-light now.. Everything or almost everything is.. Me.. Maybe I had just learn to dote on myself more than ever.. Or stop trying to understand and pretend i really understood others thats why giving way to me, myself.. enduring others' anger, mistakes, etc. Now, I feel that i want something better for myself.. tryin not to poke my nose into other people's business so on and so forth.. I do not know if its bad.. But i felt that i am really selfish at times.. Besides the bad points, of cos.. new points emerged as well... I am a little more fillial i guessed.. In the sense that.. i am more sensitive to my family's feeling, namely more of my mum and dad.. And i grow to learn to care my grandma more.. Goin her hse more often.. As i know that my presence will definitely bring joy to her heart. As there is seriously, no chance for regret. Do wadever i want.. No regrets anymore..However, besides me whos changing.. the people around me changes too. Changes in their actions, characters, speech and etc. I do not understand why this person once is very closed to me, jus treat me invisibly recentli.. not that i have done anything wrong.. but jus.. gradually, we are lesserin our contacts and very soon, i think she will be gone.. I do not know wad happen.. but everything jus doesn't feels the same anymore.. changes are unforeseeable.. its unchangable.. its consistent and never-ending.. But every change should have a reason.. I jus dun understand how can people jus walk in and out of my life so easily.. maybe i din do much to make that relationship stays.. but that abrupt sense of lost had always made mi feel formin a friendship is in vain..I don't want change!
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well, the only thing that's constant in life would be change. Learn to embrace it
hmmm... constant change... or i shd say.. its drastic change... pple do change easily.. and there is nothing else that can deter the action.. maybe i shdn't dwell on that either.. why shd i even care?
haha.. i guessed u were right.. i can onli sit down and remember the good times that i once spent with them.. ever consider why i was so closed with them for a certain period of time and jus a blink of eyes, they jus dun stay closed anymore. which makes the suddenli emptiness in my heart. Did i did something wrong or maybe i jus happens not to be able to create lotsa long term friendship. Thanks for rosli's input. =)
u've changed already. for the better i sae!
hmmm.. u sounded like you know me? Hahaha.. Maybe.. I dunno whether i have changed for the better.. But definitely, there are some slight changes to my character and behaviour..
i do noe u...
hmmm... issit? So Mr/Mrs/Ms/Miss Anonymous who are u? Haha
this makes it more fun isn't it?
more fun for u i guessed... haiz..
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