sometimes i dunno that i can realli be so wei da.. or maybe i just dun wish things to drag.. slowly i understand why then coconut wants to leave the clique.. but maybe this time for me.. its another totally different reason.. i dunno i am wei da or i am jus selfish.. is it better to have 5 people suffering or 1 suffer and other 4 stays happy.. maybe sw is true about me being unfair to the other 4s for not considering their feelings.. but as much as i am in this decision making process.. i am definitely trying to take ur "happiness" into consideration.. trying to make ya laughter and happiness to the fullest... how happy can you be if there is 2 thorns in the clique? like wad i had said earlier.. maybe thats the least i can do for her since she thinks that i am at fault still.. which is to leave you all alone.. i will be fine.. i hope.. time heals doesn't it? and this time.. i really need it to heal me..

I dunno how long i can stand this.. simply becos of some stupid misunderstanding and i am being condemn.. or maybe its jus that these 7 years is not enough for you to understand me at all.. am i really that complicated? sometimes, there is really such a thing as being the stupid fool and allowing others to stay happy and leaving yourself being sad and lonely... what an idiotic fool? ----- Ya, and thats me..