Ever wonder what it takes for you to not want to wake up again? That must be the most beautiful dream i had.. argh.. maybe i can only dream on.. sigh.. can i go back sleep again? and maybe sleep forever? i choose to run away from reality.. since this reality doesn't seems to have anything that is holding me back.. friends is a fidgeting term that i once tried very hard to hold on to.. but it let go of me.. family is a challenging form when as much as i try hard to bond it.. at times it'll still fall apart.. work.. there is basically no work now.. i am slacking.. so no harm from running away from slacking.. love.. and maybe only in my dreams then i can really find myself being happy.. i once told myself.. if anytime one of these few fulfil my expectation, i may be happy again.. but it doesn't seems to work very well.. cos none of them are up to it.. maybe as a perfectionist, i thought of a world that is far from reach.. and many a times, i already lowered the standard.. these is not an entry to offend anyone.. jus that, there is always certain expectations we set for one another.. jus that, maybe when others dun meet my expectation, at the same time, i don't meet theirs ba.. somehow, i already don't wish to care.. cos i only want to dream.. call me stupid.. call me a fool.. wadever.. unless you believe that you got ways to make me feel that really something in real life that i should cherish.. and maybe i shouldn't sleep at all and waste my stupid time..