what it takes to be a good sister?

I thot undying love and care would be enough to be a good sister.. but what if.. ya sister doesn't want all this... what if she is different from others? what if.. she doesn't want to choose the government planned route and have another totally different sets of thinking? what if... i am losing her... losing a good sis... and when sis is slowly turning evil... how am i going to change her back?

I am stubborn. She is stubborn. She doesn't care about the family anymore.. A long long time ago... And i believe family is only an empty shell... one which will give her shelter... one which will provide her with moolah and food...

Friends? How good can they be? They trusted her? They believed in her? They understands in her? Or is it THEM who installed this totally different thinking into her which makes her totally different from me(The guai kia who follows the planned route) I do hope that i can do something to help her.. Or maybe in her eyes.. i am blocking her from all the freedoms her wants... juvenile... it never takes me to realise that i can be that close to using this word. I believe that she hasn't turn bad... i believe that she has her whatever reasons to feel and think such a way... But how can i help her to reverse her thinking and opinion?

Being a sister is not that easy afterall. Why some sister can just criticise and scold her younger sister and the younger sister will turn into a useful being.. The "ai de jiao yu" isn't useful here at all. Some may said that she is spoilt...(Maybe) But i believe she was given too much freedom...

Oh gosh... had just lost a star and here come another big problem... think Peiying... you shall not be defeated... flood her with ya philosophy... flood her with ya love... and she will understand... SOON (i hope..)