Happy New Year

First of all, Happy New Year.

This seems extremely fresh and important to me as this day also marks the real beginning of a different phase of my life. Not that its a major turnaround point or what.. Just that, I am officially stepping into my first working year.

Things have changed, obviously. I was actually thinking of how the past was like and how I roam around the streets, do small little frivolous things that seems all so big. Even the people around me, whom then I saw, are growing up. Somehow, I feel old at such a young tender age when I thought the guy standing right beside me seems to have grown up from the little boy face I sort of vaguely remember in my tiny brain.

Time really do pass by fast, only when you are thinking back. There seems to be no so much of problems can't solve or whatsoever, as time will takes its toll and things will settle one by one. I wonder what things will be like in one year's time.

This morning, my "brother" asked me to pen down a whole list of new year's resolutions and wishlist. Deep down inside, I felt reluctant. Not that I am lazy to write or type (if not otherwise, I wouldn't have such a long post anyway.. I am foreseeing this to be long.. haha). But then, I really don't have a clue what I want to achieve this year. Miraculously, there was also this news on yahoo which struck me as it says: New Year resolutions can be bad for you: study

I can totally understand where this study come from. Basically, it is rather depressing to oneself, if things you set out to do wasn't accomplished. I can't say that I am a carefree person, taking things as it is and finishing things as it comes. Ironically, I am a virgo. Maybe I am not the most perfect one since I am one of those stuck in the beginning few days of the flock. But then, I like to see end results coming beautifully in the way I wanted it to be. Hence, though I am not a planning person, whatever that comes along, I will want it to be at its perfection according to my standards (of cos!)

Ok. Back to the wishlist, sigh.. I can't really pinpoint any. I am afraid that if I list down all those things which I wanted to do, I will only disappoint myself. Many have asked me about why I haven't proceed on with my driving lessons, tests etc. Seems like I have also constantly been giving them the same old answer. Am I cheating myself on it? Giving numerous excuses? Maybe? However, looking at how my bank account depletes after deducting the shitty computer loan (ok la.. i knew it is coming.. so stay cool~), it just never fail to dampen my motivation further. Oh man.. Maybe no one will know the fear, commitments that I see myself facing in the future. I used to be so carefree about it in the past, but never so anymore.

Then again, let's steer back the topic to a happy one. It's the new year, starting on a new tone! I am happy that I spent the first good half an hour watching tv with my family, and the next few wee hours with a bunch of good friends.

We also made many of our first attempts of the year: The first lame joke, the first supper, the first drive, first song we sang and many more. It's fun how things turn out though my eye lids are weighing down periodically as time threads past my dreamy hours. I am glad that I made the right choice to drag my tired body out of the house after I finished 8 hours of shopping with my cutie sister. hahaha.

Hope the year will go on well for me.

2009 - a new beginning; a new start

Let us all be blessed.