messy

Sometimes, having alot of things build up inside one's mind isn't a very good thing. I've happened to see it in many and sadly, not many are able to handle it well. The thought of achieving something and yet failed to do so in life really sucks. And as the mind miraculously works its way to all possibilities, it really saddens one as in reality, things just couldn't happen.

Somehow, I understand why I liked certain stuffs and not the others cause I am very sure that I can take control of them. Unlike most part of my life, the failure to take control just irks me. Maybe the vasity of dream is just too much a burden.

Just went for a run tonight. I managed to push myself over my 15mins limit and understand that sometimes, I am just worrying or stopping myself too much. Nonetheless, I also know that it is something I can easily control. Who knows I may love running one day. I hope not. But.. somehow.. it applies to many of my friends.. (love running when they feel troubled.. hahaha..)

Hey but then again, the anlene orchard mile run was indeed a pretty enjoyable experience. Mixing with the young do make you feel younger. Watching them from far, I do (not) see myself. A pity that I hadn't enjoy as much as them when I was their age. However, it's never too late to start isn't it. By the way, I felt short-changed by 2 bucks. Those who went will know why..