goals in life?

Currently in a very nice soothing and nostalgia mood.. Everything seems to be stagnant at this point. No one is moving forward and neither is any moving back, at least from my point of view.

Always like to have endless amount of free time.. Spending time to sleep, watch tv, eat, read, play whenever I want is just some other kind of feeling that I yearned for over these few years.. But.. this is not good.. Or I don't feel good.. Living life aimlessly just isn't so me.. But is it not considered aimlessly if I had something to do?

I know that even if I had something to do, its just something that keeps me occupied for the time being.. Something that I want to do.. Something that I hope to do.. "Something that you urge for so much that you will do anything to attain it.." -- this kind of feeling, I never had before and is something that I really wished I can experience.. But what can make me feel that way?

I realised I haven't found a real dream of my own. A dream that is attainable, achievable, that will not made me feel disappointed as long as I worked hard or as long as I did my best. But somehow I also realised that not all dreams will come true isn't it.. I have to be realistic in searching for a dream..

A dream that I will live for.. One that will set a direction as to where I wanted myself to end up with.. One that could make me gather all my courage and work the hell out of it to achieve it.. One that I believed in.. One.. that makes me feel that I never live my life for nothing.. One.. that makes me feel great and worthful as a person.. Challenging my limits and telling where my limits are.. Pushing myself to another level of life.. Bringing myself out of this self..

So.. My dream..

What are you?