full of potential?

i realised one thing. i am actually so minute. to the extent that, i may be a useless piece of paper in this world. However, i know that i do have the potential. one day.. to become a valuable piece of art piece if i acquire the right skills, insightful views and broad knowledge, i may one day be able to draw a beautiful piece of art on myself such that no one could miss. But the question is... how?

As the days go by, i only got to know more about myself.. which is how little i know.. haha.. quite ironic.. regretted that i am nv able to cultivate this habit of reading the news paper or reading books. I missed alot.. really alot.. now.. that i seldom read.. plus the slow speed of reading makes me feel that i lost out to many people..

And yet, another part of me, thoh fully aware of this, am not able to change.. i guess i just have a pretty bad way of managing my time.. or i am just not discipline enough.. ah... i want to read finish all the storybooks that i have in my cardboard.. but i just don't know why.. i always feel restless and tired... especially recently... maybe i feel that i am stupid.. HA!

school work is getting more and more difficult.. or is it just that i am used to how my previous lecturers have fed me with their super detailed step-by-step notes.. maybe.. this is just another phase of my life.. learning to learn from not detailed non-step-by-step notes.. HA!

But again... i don't like changes..

- a person who is afraid of change -