a new year = a new beginning?

It seems like i haven't blog for quite some time.. but that doesn't mean that i have abandoned this special website of mine. (something no one can ever take it away.. except myself.. or maybe one day whole world's internet crash and have to build up the whole system again and all the memories are gone and so is mine.. ok.. crappy...) Its because the past few posts are all really sad memories of mine, and i wished to put a stop sign to it. Will i ever succeed? Hahaha.. Who knows?

For the past one year, I can say that happy things seldom pass by but unhappy ones sticked themselves to me real close. All in all, will things turn out to be different in the new year? I have no special powers to predict but man have to be brave to accept whatever challenges there are in life.

The things i am really happy about:

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I can't be that sad right.. I really can't remember any events.. A) Though i can say that my birthday celebration with my uni friends are really something that i din expect, and it turns out to be fun but somehow, when i asked myself the question, it just wasn't named. B) I should say that when i played with my grandma, talked to her, I was enjoying myself too but somehow its not a happy thing either. C) The numerous gatherings i had with friends, cousins and relatives....

Hahaha.. I dwelled to much on the unhappy side of me.. thats for sure.. under that innocent smile of mine, who in this world knows that when its genuine and when its not. Not that i am fake and act out a smile. I am genuinely happy at that moment, but unhappy things that occur will just automatically overtook its position and i am not happy again.

The above mentioned incidents should jolly well add lights and sparkles to my life, and should be a wonderful chapter in it too. But its just not meant to be. Hahaha..

Oh well, i thought it should be a new year blog and why is all this shit on my post after 3 weeks of no blogging.. haha.. I am still grateful of many things currently.. 1) Having a good time at work gossiping 2) My grandma is now with my grandpa, happy and sound under his care 3) I am still able to bring smile to my mum with my cheeky attitude though i know she is really unhappy at times 4) Have friends in university (hope they will stay) 5) Yiling is with me for 4 years already.. something so special about it is, we are so different and yet, we never part. 6) S.L.I.P.Y.5 is still together.. (but the yahoo group is gonna be down soon..) 7) My dad's health hasn't worsen.. or at least i do not know of any... He is healthy.. i hope i can say that.. 8) My grades are ok at the moment. 9) Have been spending quality time with my cousins and sharing with them my worries. (finally dun have to act like a big sis with big responsiblities) 10) Great to be in school, can see alot of people..................................

So i still lead a fairly well good life. Something to be happy about. In this new year, I hope for the same old things i wished for every year. For my parents to be healthy and we live harmoniously together, and do well for my studies and maybe get a boyfriend.. hahahahahahahhaa..

I see that i wrote alot of crap.. some side effect for not blogging so long.. ahha.. bye bye.. =P MUACKS