feedbacks of the year

I realised the annual big day is arriving soon.. and yet, the usual eager me has gone disappearing in the wind. Through the days, I've learn a lesson of minimal expectations. And now, to me, thoh it may be a special day, but i do not have the thrill anymore.. Too much disappointment i guessed. But I believed I should be happier this time, cos I wun be disappointed this time.

Amazingly, I can't believed how I can take this so easily. Looking at my friends.. Some takes it as just another day, some do a major celebration for it, some just let things go quietly feeling lonely and bored, some do it with a few friends, some got their annual surprises. Different people do have different ways to handle the day and yet, many had already accustom to their norms. Their usual ways.

I was asked once, what is my wishlist? But it wasn't directly for the occasion. However, there ain't many. There aren't many materials that I want.. Maybe a 6 months pack contacts... Haha.. too lazy to buy.. Practicality is on the top list of chinese. Hahaha... However, on top of that.. the main things I want to wish for are:

1. I wish for my grandma's health. Want her to be "chang ming bai shui". Stay happy.

2. I wish for the well-being of my family. Everyone feeling connected to each other, esp my sis.

3. I wish for my happiness. Less troubles. Gets what I want. At least, let me have the minimal happiness that I want to achieve.

Am i too greedy? Hmmmm...

Looking back the past 1 year, I can still remember days before the day, I was sitting along the road side, feeling pretty high.. and maybe, speaking nonsense according to some of the people. It looks like there ain't much nonsense I can speak of this time. It was definitely a year full of events. I dun regret it. Cos I grew from it. Being strong is the phrase. But still, can be better. I feel for someone strongly once, I hated someone strongly once (myself), I am disappointed strongly once, I regretted strongly once, I am damn pissed at least once (haha), I am greatly remorseful once. The different kinds of feelings that I've encountered, made my life more colourful and yet, duller. Its no longer that naive, innocent one.. Yet, still childish at times..

I hoped for an exciting year to come. Hope for the best to occur. Maybe someone can pluck down the star for me. I shall be very happy then. (",)