The Rainbow is a sign of hope for tomorrow

"whenever a good rain washes the world, and a Rainbow appears in the sky, let us remember to appreciate one another"

I remember since young, i love the rainbow. It may be because of its wide range of colours. It may be its height and the difficulty to reach that makes me adore it. Or the short time of appearance makes mi cherish it more often than not. How many times in a year can i see the rainbow? The number of times is really limited. That why people likes the rainbow. I do not know if the rainbow is a sign of hope for tomorrow. Cos it seems like my tomorrow always does not have the rainbow hang across the sky. Sometimes, it needs fate. Sometimes, it needs hardwork. And if every tomorrow can only brings me sadness and allow me to lose hope further, thoh it may still be a sign of hope, i can no longer depend on it. Cos i already have lose hope. Does it sound cheem? Haiz..

And there is always a reason for every actions. Avoidance doesn't seems to be the solution to problems.. that i know.. but am i avoiding? To me, i am directing strongly to the main core of the problem. It takes 2 hands to clap my dear. If rainbow is the sign of hope and one doesn't even want to hope for the rainbow, then everything is just going to be brought to waste. So, why give rainbow such a heavy responsibility?

Besides, i do appreciate everyone that is in my life, leaving their footprints behind, and thats how i grow.. to become the me now.. everyone is important. But what is it den if i appreciate others and they don't. Maybe another way of appreciating is to give less problem to the other. Since i may a thorn in the eye for another. Though all these may seems ridiculous and arise from purely my thoughts. Its not by overnights. Apparently, something has to be done. Its no longer the 5. Its 4 and a half. The circle can no longer be perfect ever since the crack is made. Whose fault i do not wish to discuss here. Cos its an endless topic. Even if i wish to put glue on my side, the other do not wish to come near and stick near me, nothing could be done. Why not end it cleanly and stop my pain?

Some of the things is not what i want but its already clear that what i want is never to happen again. So... let fate decides ba.. And the other had once said.. dun use gang to force her to come near me... so.. ya.. since she already meant that to be clear as that.. i shall be the good guy.. stop her agony..