dream = life?

i am dreaming alot these days... till an extent that i am afraid to dream.. but still i want to dream.. facing death in my dreams seems sad.. but i may be so used to it that one day.. i shall not fear death..

coco told mi that dreaming death symbolise falling in love in real life.. i do have some reservations about that cos its like NO LINK... haha... but if that is so.. are u dreaming of death? Tweet? Coconut tree? Shit? Shimin? Yifei? Hahaha.. How true it is? i do agree that i am falling for someone.. but the thot of having such a dream to symbolise the real situation in life is so freaky.. haha..

Anyway.. i am happier now... haha.. i am living outside anxiety.. thinking of all the negative stuff is already not part of my agenda... i feel that i have matured.. but it may be jus a smoke screen... a few days ago.. when i help my dad to exchange his "cha cha le" for money, that auntie asked me how old am i again? which makes mi think that.. haha... i am still young? woo.. dun i look 19? hai... i think when i reach 20... some pple cannot even believe it..

Com'on.. but theres nothing wrong about that.. haha.. i believe that one day..i will turn out to be the da ren in everyone's eyes.. i am a shi shi zai zai de 19 year old.. even the character tests show it... hahaha... but my looks... woo... i think i can realli be flexi.. cos i thot i look real old sometimes.. hai... its better to be young than old isn't it.. hmmm... 3 more months and i will have to write a 2 in my age column.. feels nothing about it.. jus a stage in life.. maybe i want to zhang da.. haha.. so i dun dread it.. for those who are already in their twenties.. are u all jealous about it? haha...