dreams like promises are meant to be broken?

Sometimes, its really good to have goals and dream far. But what if.. your dreams are slowly slowly broken one by one..

Normally, i don't really have lots of dreams at one go. I am one that will put all my eggs in one basket. Thus, if my one dream is broken, i will be sad and even heart break for a period of time. And maybe thats when, when time heals ya wound and another dream is weaved. But what if another dream is broken again.. the vicious cycle just goes on and on and on.

I did ask myself this question days ago. "Aren't you tired of all these?" Maybe standing alone at the top of the mountain viewing the scenery can be a wonderful thing as well. You can enjoy the peacefulness and quietness of the surrounding and there is no need for companies. But is that really true? Maybe that is only an excuse that i have given myself to escape from all these. No one likes the feeling of being lonely. I am sure Barney as well.

Can still vividly remember that he once said that he will not get into any relationship till the end of the 4 years. And now, he is happily attached, forgoing all the negative thoughts and feelings. I believed that the world to him now is just a permanent rainbow hanging in front of him. Every little thing will just ignite another smile. Happiness comes from within and definitely cannot be acted out.

Maybe shit and mi are really very similiar. I hate to admit it but its very true. Laughters can seemly be seen on our faces almost everyday. But are we really happy? We are pissed off many times. But do we really get pissed becos of just one incident or it might be just a catalyst like what he said. Maybe one big different that differs me from him is.. even when i am pissed.. no one knows.. haha... i am just a great faker... or u may want to put it nicely as i dun want others to be affected by my emotions. Anyway you like to describe of me.. Just wanna like you pple know, i mean no harm.. just trying to protect myself..