effects of songs in da mind

a sensation of calmness hanging over the air as stefanie sun sings hai pai.. soothing tune.. tinge of sadness filled the air.. but still.. feel calm.. the turbulence inside my heart has as if been forgotten, disappears and flies up the sky. i will keep the belief and walk myself.

I believe that different songs have different effect on my heart. As hai pai slowly comes to an end, zhang shan wei's qian shou followed. the heart wrenching feeling is back. turblulence is created. thinking of whatever things that cannot be thought of. "Jing qian zhe ni de shou jiu xiang jing wo xin fu zai shou zhong, gei ni kuai le~, bu rang ni ji mo, oh oh oh" How can this ever be done? If one thing needs 2 hands to clap, one hand no matter how big it is, will never be able to make any sound. Even if u really feel that you can give the other happiness, but is that what you think the other would want?

Jay Chou. How many things are there to give us a second chance? Haiz.. I also wish to hui dao guo qu, but in a different way. If i know i am going to like this person, can i hui dao guo qu and stop myself from sinking further? Can this even be done? I remember there is this line in <> it says " jiu suan ji yi hui siao shi, ai qing ye hui liu xia". If i am really given the opportunity to stop loving, can i even stop it in the first place?

There are really many things that i hope that i can return to the original position. my family, my friends, my studies, my love. however, human just have to learn and move on. But why is my path ahead slowly leading to the waters. Is there just no way out? Or maybe i have to walk thru this shit before i can reach the other side that may be a greener pasture for me. However, it is, I don't have the courage to move on. Past experience is a painful memory of my life. learn alot but still keep stumbling in life. It seems that there is always a never ending to such. It is always different. There is just too much to learn. The simple yet complicated me is really lucky to not head to any foolish thoughts as yet. Some may say its not worth it.. but who cares when you are really down. Coming back to reality..

Another love song in the air. Sad? Touching? hmm.. I already don't know.. feeling numb for a second.. how i wish i can really feel numb? den there may be a chance where i have no emotional string attaches..