valentine's day.. what it means to mi?

Just now, a friend was telling me that if you don't really have a valentine.. then that wun be a valentine's day but a "friend"ship day.. haiz.. its a little tricky here.. friends... friends.. sad.. do i really have a good friend? After living on earth for 19 years, it would be a bit bad to everyone i know if i say i dun have... however...

i am really being "yi zhu gan da fan yi chuan ren" here.. or to change another proverb.. "wei le yi ke shu fang qi zhen zhuo sheng lin".. dun be mistaken.. not talking about love here yet.. its still on the topic of "FRIENDS".. some things when its happen, cannot be changed.. along with it pple learn.. in a hard way.. and i learn it in an "extreme" way.. (not to trust people anymore)

I remember once i told someone on a train. He told mi that actually he doesn't have alot of good friends though i saw many around him.. its due to his lack of trust in people and the wall he built between him and others to protect himself makes him feel so. At that period of time, I thot wadever i said may make him ponder alot regardin lower this guard and have more trust in people. Nevertheless, its only less than one month from the day i said these to him. And now i totally understand why theres a need to protect himself.. and now.. myself...

Recently, there are soooo sooo many guys who are after my sister... they are all good people i think... and i am particular close with a few of them too.. i am really happy for my sister... she can have so many people showing care, concerns and love for her.. but at the same time.. jealousy strikes... abit not appropriate here.. but for someone who "semi-fell out of love".. someone who seems to lost all trust and people who care pr concern.. this is some unavoidable scenerios.. i felt that i understand the plights of those guys who are aftering my sister... however, at least they still stand a chance.. so wun be as sad as mi...

Hmm.. i recently took a test or quiz... it stated that i am one who wun forget about my valentine wun forget about valentine's day... but thats when i have this special someone.. will luv him all the way... haiz... seriously, i am not the desperate kind.. if i am.. i will already have gotten over and be happy... somethings are jus out there to bring back memories and pain... the more u wanna get over, the more u can't... things can onli go the nature way... and it always go.. u'll heal as the time goes by..

On this lonely valentine's day, which is today, someones is going to be very busy... someone is going to be very free.. someone is going to be very happy.. while someone is going to be very lonely... happy and sad is onli differentiated by a real thin line... i hope i can really make the best out of tomorrow and hope that i wun feel sad at the end of the day again.. vdae is not a good day for mi this year...